Know you are ok
When the more difficult things occur they are like releases and the right people are there to help you.
You are ok.
Whilst waiting you can just learn to Be and keep focused on light in and around you and say to yourself 'I am ok'
Old stuff needs to come out at some point, like I say ' the dam cant hold back the pressure for ever without a lot of maintenance'.
The key is to be in peace and avoid getting afraid and step forwards to help yourself with your own healing.
You can do it.
Keep peace within....more peace will follow
Image is the Reflect in card of Being in Colour